The past few months have been marked by a few trials and struggles. Caring for elderly parents is a new phase of life for me and my husband, and it takes time, patience, and understanding. But through these hardships, God's providence is evident.
I recently ran across (really scrolled across) a video clip from Priscilla Shirer. I'm a BIG fan of hers, having read, worked through, and learned from many of her Bible studies. I enjoy her Instagram video excerpts and glean great wisdom and teachings in those short clips.
One video clip I recently viewed had a significant impact on me. Priscilla Shirer was talking about fear, and how we should not fix our eyes on our circumstances or whatever is causing the fear, but instead fix our eyes on Jesus. It's a choice we must make every day. To focus on who God is—His promises, His character, and His victories. She suggested keeping a journal of God's work in our lives. Where we have seen His hand, where He shows up in the unexplainable, and when the only explanation of what has happened is divine intervention. Then, when we are fearful, nervous, or anxious, we can go back and read how God has been faithful.
I loved that idea and took it to heart, starting a journal in early October. I wrote the date and a sentence or two about where I saw God's hand in my life. I haven't written notes on each day—not that He's not working every day—but I have a series of dates with notes where His presence was clear and He was reminding me of His providence and sovereignty.
Fear and anxiety make me forget God's faithfulness. Fear and anxiety are where the enemy steps in and takes advantage of my vulnerability. With my new journal, I am able to go back and read where God has been faithful and trustworthy. In times of trial, I remember His faithfulness, know He is near, and know that I can rely on Him.
Trials shape us and grow us in our faith. Through the struggles of the past few months, God has shaped me with His tender care, love, and faithfulness. Many times, I asked God "Why?", only for Him to show me moments of joy, peace, and clarity of His will. It is these moments and blessings that I will cling to tightly.
